Everything I hope for

and you will be the one...

And you will be the one to say to my heart,

           ”Come out! Come out!

       It’s OK to breathe again.”

“Forget the past. It’s only the future that matters.”

“Was what happened before really that bad?”

         ”Surely

                    you are stronger now.”

And your gentle coaxing will bring my heart

        out of the cocoon where it was

hidden, (wrapped tightly in thoughts and logic and plans.)

      Wincing at the brightness of the sun.

       Reaching blindly

                                for your hand.

-Niah Jamerson

Acceptance!

"There comes a time when you have to stand up and shout: "This is me, damn it!" I look the way I look, think the way I think, feel the way I feel, love the way I love. I am a whole complex package. Take me...or leave me. Accept me -- or walk away. Do not try to make me feel like less of a person, just because I don't fit your idea of who I should be and don't try to change me to fit your mold. If I need to change, I alone will make that decision. When you are strong enough to love yourself 100%, good and bad -- you will be amazed at the opportunities that life presents you."

via "It Gets Better," Alma College

Get it. <3

I'm such a hypocrite.

(There's no need for an explanation, it's just the truth.)

It's like forgetting the words to your favorite song...

It's a blast, isn't it? Not knowing anything at all about life. Well, any of the important things anyway.

Yes, I'm only twenty but I'm getting to the point where I don't think I'm overreacting at all. It's becoming more and more obvious that I'm just floating by and not trying academically at all. Required readings are optional, homework is such a chore, writing papers seems like a waste of time, the Internet seems way better than what I've got going on here, friends are busy doing things that are important and well...I'm just not on the same page. I'm so tempted to take time off but I know I'll probably regret it. I'll be trapped in the hometown that I detest, and surrounded by people who I'd rather not be around.

But as they say, you don't know until you try... I feel like I'm losing my mind sitting around in the same place, doing the same things over and over again. At least break is coming and at least I did go to D.C. At least.

So if anyone asks, I'll say I'm fine. I'll say that this is only temporary. I'll say that college is wonderful.