I dig it.

Btw, still in Sanilac County...until tomorrow, that is. :)

Yay Alma. :D

Now, the party don't start 'til I walk in ;)

Ke$ha reference.

So it's not quite 11 pm on Thursday. I have one more full day of being HOME--which is tomorrow. FRIDAY. (I swear, I would never reference that song.)

It sounds like I'm having a "Girl's Day" with my mother, plus laundry, unpacking, and job applications. Saturday will be that, only I'll be skipping town at like 3? I have no idea. Point is, I'm going to be a busy girl.

But I'm a lot happier, since I'm starting to get over my identity crisis. :)

I guess I had to go to that place, to get to this one

I never thought I'd say this but I actually enjoy running.

It gets my brain to stop going in a million directions and all I can focus on in the moment is one thing: what's in front of me. All of my focus is on the running, the self-discipline, the breathing, every step I take...ect.


I shoot for the moon but I'm gazing at stars. <3 Not Afraid by Eminem

Wait it Out.

I am having an identity crisis. At nineteen, this is a little bit of a scary realization. However, I'm sure I can get through it. It's just going to take a lot of time and a lot of patience...

I guess it started last year but it didn't really hit me until now. I've been hiding who I am for a long time. A very long time. YEARS! 17 and a half years, to be exact.

Then, I began thinking: "Wait a second...this so isn't me! What's happening? I've never acted like this before!" That's when I started to seriously panic. I panicked so much that a lot of people didn't know what I was going through. Even I didn't know exactly what was going on with me! Basically, people started making silly assumptions, if not unfair assumptions.

Looking back now, I have changed a lot in the last year. I've done many things that I now sort of regret--that I won't be naming--but I've learned from those experiences. However, I'm still feeling in a crisis. I've been thinking this a ton since Sunday and I'm not sure what brought these feelings on.

Oh well. I suppose I'll do what my title says: wait it out. A very awesome Imogen Heap song, by the way. :D

Stay classy.

You Know,

I'm not too fantastic with words.
...but I still manage to love writing. :)

I'm going to Ann Arbor tomorrow. But I've exclaimed it so much, I'm sure half the world knows.

I say I'm great with directions.
(I got lost on my way home from Alma...ooops.)

I tell people I have a great memory but I don't remember every aspect of high school, other than what I wrote in my diary.

I'm honest. The truth still hurts, doesn't it?

I don't know why I'm still awake.

So this is where I am

I'm home and not sure what to make of it.

What should I do?
Who should I see?
Who should I reconnect with?

All of this maddness...

Does it keep me wanting more?

I want to return to Alma, actually--but when the time comes.

4-30-11: Hurry up.

Oh, what can it mean for us?

I never write in blue. Ever.

People need to stop being stupid. I see so much of it and it makes me sick.

I'm staying in Alma for Spring Term and quite possibly for a bit of summer. Depends on the frustrating job market that has been raining on my parade for months.

I need to get sleep. Seriously.

When you fall asleep in your clothes and sleep until 1:30, that's a sign of sleep deprivation.

But I'm going to get a week break back at home and most of it will be spent sleeping. :P

Come together.

Hey. Thursday was awesome. I can't even explain how awesome it was. :) I've got a lil cold, and it's annoying. Also: I am debating on getting a few tattoos, as well as growing out my hair. If I can go to New Zealand next year, that will be quite awesome. At the same time, I feel like I'll be torn if there's an awesome Spring Term for my major that I can go on. We'll see.

This is basically a, "This is where I'm at" kind of post. Kinda bored, and not looking forward to exams or my Perc stress week--next week/weekend! Otherwise, content yet hungry. But tonight, one of my neighbors and I are organizing a pizza party so that should be a fun time. :)

Damn. It's almost 6 and I've done next to nothing with my day. Yesss. Oh, other than paint my toenails. :D

Bye. I have 14 days (counting today) left of being in Alma and then, I'll be home. Talk about mixed feelings.

So.

Is it time yet?

Not yet. Just focus on being here and Now, instead of in your future that you don't know for sure.

But what if I'm sick of being 19?

Too bad! You'll age in time. Besides, 19 isn't even that old. It's quite young.

But what if...?

What if? So what? Where would the fun in life be, if you knew exactly everything that was going to happen to you?

If I have mono, I am going to be so pissed.

April showers bring?

So far, it's much better than March and only Day 2.

I should go get brunch; however, my stomach just started acting up. Go figure.

But, at least I can be thankful that yesterday was a lovely day. :)


In every single way... :D